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Zahrah Nasir was born Pam Morris in the highlands of Scotland. And nothing could be more incongruous than
a 27-year-old Scotswoman, a battered wife, freshly divorced, out
of a mental home and having lost the custody of her two children,
charging off halfway around the world to a battle-ravaged country
to become a war correspondent. An ideal recipe
for disaster. However, not
only did Pam Morris make it to Afghanistan, but she walked shoulder
to shoulder with the mujahideen, witnessed the horror and tragedy
of the Russian invasion of Afghanistan – and survived.
It was also incongruously enough, “in a decrepit windowless
room in Peshawar,” that she became a woman.
“Was it when I started wearing makeup and bought my first
pair of high heels? Was it when I gave birth to my first child?
It was none of these things.
“I became a woman when I was treated like one and shown respect…
I became a woman the first time I went to war.”
The Gun Tree is an extraordinary autobiographical account
of Zahrah Nasir’s 10-day stay in Afghanistan.
Ten days that stretched over a lifetime and changed her life
forever. It is also the story of a mujahideen commander
who trusted what he saw in her eyes and took her with him into the
depths of hell, and sent her away before destruction struck.
Nasir’s abrupt, staccato writing style is well suited to
the physical and emotional trauma that she was plunged into with
her first steps into Afghanistan.
“Three weeks ago I was
in Scotland.
Three months ago I had
been a battered wife.
Three hours from now
I’ll be asleep.
Three hundred miles
from here I’ll be safe.
Three seconds from now
I might be dead.”
As she crossed the border, Pam Morris became Banafsha Khomar:
“The erstwhile commander galloped alongside me and happily yelled,
‘Welcome to Afghanistan… Now
you are an Afghan woman Pam… Your
name is Banafsha Khomar’.” He
had named her after the cornflower-blue daisy that grows wild in
the mountains of Afghanistan.
In a valley with 1500 mujahideen, Banafsha Khomar was the
only woman. Disguised as an Afghan in a shalwar kameez
and a black veil she travelled to the mujahideen base camp through
Russian MIG raids, saw Afghans blown to bits, villages razed to
the ground, young boys with legs blown off… the journey was the
ultimate test in physical and mental endurance.
Travelling at a gruelling pace, often 23 hours a day, the
party only stopped for tea and naan. In the courtyard of the camp was a mulberry
tree after which this book was named.
Banafsha called it the gun tree because it was used by the
mujahideen to hang their guns, ammunition and belts.
It also became her special sitting place, always left vacant
for her by the mujahideen.
It was under the shelter of the mulberry tree that Banafsha
witnessed the brutality of the mujahideen stoning a spy to death. Huddled under the tree she tried desperately to close out the chilling
clatter of stones pounding against flesh and the screams that pierced
the night. At last the screams
stopped and the camp prepared for supper.
It was also sitting under the mulberry tree that she participated
in discussions on war, or on the next raid and watched the men play
volley-ball and chess. She
accompanied the commander on a mission into the mountains to bring
down ammunition from an underground store and met villagers in bombed-out
hamlets who shared their precious morsels of food with her and begged
her to tell the world what was happening to them and their country.
When the commander got news of an impending Russian raid,
he forcibly sent Banafsha, accompanied by three of his cousins,
back on the long road to Pakistan. A few hours after they left, Russian MIGs swooped
down over them towards the camp in a terrifying bombing run of destruction
and death. “I fought not
to scream, not to turn and race back towards something I could neither
change nor help.”
The Gun Tree is a fascinating narrative of a woman who made
the Afghan war her own, who in that wild and war-torn land earned
the respect of the battle-hardened mujahideen and who, in those
tumultuous ten days, experienced more than most do in a lifetime.
Life for her was never the same again.
She returned to Scotland only to find that she was a stranger
in her native Scottish Highlands.
She left after two years to marry and settle in the mountains
of Pakistan, where she lives today.
Close to Afghanistan and the friends she left behind.
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